It's well past 3am. I have been awake all night enjoying the storm since it started some hours ago. When there is a storm I like to be in outdoors. I'm sitting on the porch, or I was. Every flash still amazes me.

I only smoke cigarettes every now and then. I don't think I was addicted this last time around. It was more of something I did to calm myself. There is not a whole lot more calming than a thunderstorm with a cigarette on the front porch.

Ear is still bleeding, even though I thought it stopped yesterday. I have been getting dizzy every now and then and sometimes lose my balance. Ruptured ear drum I am hoping. If it keeps up, I'm going to the doctor to get it looked at. I'd be okay with it being brain cancer. Honestly, I would. I'd like the challenge. I'm guessing it's not, but if it was, I'd be okay with it. I'm not scared anymore. I haven't been for a long time now.

I must say, the storm is calling me back outside.